I remember being in love as a first grader. My mother and father both told me, at different times, that I could not love the girl, for I did not know her. That lesson has stuck with me throughout my entire lifetime.
This knowledge has played an important role in my realization of self-love. It was actually impossible for me to love myself for years because I had no clue who I was. Even when I decided I would no longer be who others had projected me to be, I still had no knowledge of self, and thus I was yet unable to truly love myself.
Even when I finally came into the knowledge of self, I continued to perish because, by my actions, I rejected that knowledge. There were parts of me I was refusing to be, and thus I was not operating in self-love.
Now that I AM standing in the fullness of my power, I can say that I perfectly love myself. Knowing myself and loving myself is giving me the boldness also to no longer hide that I know others, even when they don’t know themselves. I used to be fearful of sharing with others my knowledge of myself and my knowledge of them. I didn’t want anyone to accuse me of trying to control them.
I understand now, however, the difference between a father, and a man with children. I AM a divine father, and as such, I AM accountable as a provider. Provision comes from two Latin roots- pro, which means before, and visio, which means to see. A provider is much more a prophet than a supplier.
I didn’t want to embrace this knowledge of myself, and I failed in my love of many because I was refusing to perfectly love myself. I didn’t want the responsibility of warning people of coming destruction, and the idea of telling others that what they are doing is not loving themselves made me feel controlling.
I had been that father who gave the children whatever they wanted, and never wanted to tell them no. When I first acknowledged myself as father, I wanted all to run free. Then I started to realize how not applying my knowledge of others was becoming counterproductive to the establishment of New Earth. The children of the world are lost in learned ignorance. They went from the indoctrination of being religious to the folly and fuckery of being woke. Yet, they believe themselves to be free moral agents, when they have actually been imprisoned because of the father’s refusal to chasten them.
People don’t actually love themselves today. They think loving themselves is a matter of giving themselves whatever they want, whenever they want, with no accountability. They believe themselves to be mature, but they are really still children, being tossed to and fro by every wind of doctrine. Well, 2020 is the year of alignment, and in order for the old landmarks to be established, and the cornerstone to be laid, a lot of fuckery and foolishness must first be cleared away; cleared away so you can see clearly who you are, and build upon the sure foundation of love.
Once you truly know yourself, and fully accept yourself according to that knowledge, you move from narcissist to leader. Leadership requires compassion, not just for the moment, but with a loving vision for the future as well. Self-love is full of accountability for self, and for all you are connected to. Real self-love is reciprocal, understanding the interconnectedness of all. Without this, it is not self-love, but selfishness.